In a new blog post publish on July 13, former Cosby Show actor Joseph C. Phillips acknowledged his love and admiration for Bill Cosby, but also did not shy away from the condemning the comedian as a serial rapist.
Phillips, who played Cosby’s son-in-law Martin Kendall on the show for three years writes that Cosby as a player was well-known on set alluding to several extramarital affairs he witnessed. He also speculated that if it was “common knowledge that Bill played around”, then his wife, Camille, certainly knew but had “made her peace with it.”
Yet despite the nearly 40 accusations against Cosby, Philips remained hesitant and unable to fully grasp his lifelong idol routinely sexually assaulted women.
“As the accusations began to increase, I became increasingly disturbed. I was fairly certain that some of the women were lying through their teeth, but certainly not all of them.”
But his attitude changed after a conversation with a fellow actor and old friend that Cosby was said to have “mentored.”
“'Back in the day,' I started. 'I remember that you knew Bill – that he was like your mentor or something. Did he ever…'
Before I finished the sentence, she began to cry.
We spent the next two hours sitting on a bench talking. Through tears, she told me her story. She cursed him for violating both her trust and her body. She cursed herself for not being smarter, and for degrading herself in pursuit of success. I listened patiently. As she began to run out of steam, she turned to me. 'Do you believe me?'
'Yes.' I said. 'I believe you.'
'Why?' she asked.
'Because I don’t believe that you are crazy and only a crazy person would sit with me all this time and share a fantasy.'"
Philips seemed to finally reconcile with the idea that the man he aspired to be was not all pudding pops and fuzzy sweaters.
“Discovering that the man you idolize may be a serial rapist is a bit traumatic. I don’t imagine it is anything near to the trauma of the alleged victims. Nevertheless, I found it unsettling…
Rather than spending his time bouncing kids on his knee and eating Jell-O brand pudding, this Bill was involved in illegal drugs and illicit sex, fornication, and perhaps more.”
Despite Philips’ harrowing revelation, however, he seems unable to let go of that father figure fantasy in almost rape apologist fashion.
"The good Bill has done over the years is real and enduring. I am not prepared to simply dismiss his brilliance, his wisdom, or his legacy. You see, all of that is a part of who I am as a man – as a Black man. I am not going to toss all of that away, at least not yet."
And offered this final plea for his own consciousness,
“Bill, you have a family who loves you, a wife who is devoted to you; you have more money than you can spend. Please, go live a quiet country life. Allow those of us who truly love you to preserve just a bit of our enchantment.”
Court documents last week revealed that Cosby admitted to drugging a woman with the intent to have sex with her. In a press conference on Wednesday, Obama responded to a question asking if the president would revoke Cosby's Medal of Freedom with this moving statement clarifying his position on controversial case.
“With respect to the Medal of Freedom, there’s no precedent for revoking a medal. We don’t have that mechanism. As you know, I make it a policy not to comment on the specifics of cases where there still might be, if not criminal, then civil issues involved. I’ll say this: if you give a woman, or a man, for that matter, without his or her knowledge, a drug, and then have sex with that person without consent, that’s rape. And I think this country, or any civilized country, should have no tolerance for rape.”